Forever Thinking

As read Thursday, July 23rd, at 40 Story Radio Tower.  http://40storyradiotower.com

Processing, collaborating, meditating.
Digressing, hesitating,
wondering on a whim facing.
What's the decision?
In what kind of provision?
I will on an alliance
in magnitude
or miniscule.
I am forever thinking.
Anxiousness in the falter.
There's no balance in a regret.
The right choice,
the wrong evidence.
A stressful situation.
A careless response.
Thought processes:
You die alone.
You care too much.
Loving, despairing,
in destitute baring.
Reflecting, directing,
nonchalantly affecting.
Conditioning, repositioning,
wondering who's listening...
Did you hear what I said?
Because I can't get out of my head.
Dawdling, modeling,
corresponding.
Waiting, hating,
jealousy berating.
Growing, knowing,
hold on
I'm gloating.
Saddening, maddening,
seeing....
It's what I read that shakes my well-being.
This is how I'll deal
Give myself a pep talk spiel. 
What's on my mind
I can't leave behind.
Tiring, admiring,
sleep loss conspiring.
The time is notoriously
stuck in consideration.
Looking for elation.
Inspire my rest.
I've done my best
to figure out everything in exhaustion.